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Journal
Sunday, August 10, 2008
I have been so humbled and felt so honored the last week. First, the Lord just spoke into me through a wonderful woman in the horse world... She told me only God and His Mercy would determine whether I walked again but that more people were looking at me now than before and I was a testimony. I don't feel worthy to be this Mighty woman of God. It is about the Lord...He is the merciful and soveirgn one. Then I went to this new church in Irving. The healing INSIDE that took place that night was a miracle in its self. An amazing prophecy was spoken over me, which again I do not feel worthy to have...though I will not later Satan steal it from me. Anyways, God has just loved all over me this week through others and in my quiet time. I feel refreshed and revived again. God has traded my ashes for beauty and the weariness has been lifted. A spark of hope has turned into an amazing flame. I go to The Call in Washington DC this weekend. I only pray that revival will come upon this nation and that the mercy of God flows through like a rushing river. The Lord is crying for this nation...He does not want to pass his judgement and has extended mercy beyond what we deserve but judgement will come. He loves our nation, He loves this world, but we have fallen far from Him.
Wednesday, August 8, 2008
Today's dressage lesson was so amazing! Renee is an awesome trainer and the horse I rode was a great ride. Here are some fun pictures!
I also found the most amazing church! Heartland church in Irving. One Voice was absolutely amazing last night.
Sean and I go to San Fransico September 1-7 for his training so I can continue my workouts this week!
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
I just want to scream for joy right now!!!! I just talked to a para-olympic dressage (horses) coach. I start riding out there next weekend. I want to do it. I want to ride, I would love to do 2012 paraolympics. I can't wait. I just can't wait. More news to come soon (and hopefully some video of my first lesson :)
Saturday, July 26, 2008
So sorry I haven't updated. There hasn't been much to post. Well now there is a lot!!! :) I am moving home Wednesday. After leaving Miracle this last time I just couldn't stand to do it again. So I'm moving home. Another fun news is I rode a horse again for the first time today. I ride again Tuesday as well!
Right now I don't know what to do with life. I want to recover, but I don't want to give up the life God has planned for me to get it. I just don't know what to do. I am very confused and frustrated. I just wish I could snap my fingers and walk. When I come home I am really going to do some praying and meditation to figure out where to go from here. I am defintely starting college in the fall which will be great for me. I will also be working out of course...but it's not going to be my life. I also really want to start riding again... compete. Is that wrong? Am i idolizing horses by wanting to ride so bad? I know God wants me to be happy and do enjoyable things in life... I want to get into ministry but this just isn't the time for me to be going around trying to save the world. God is still working on me. If anyone has any thoughts on this please email me... I need some encouragement
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
I'm defintely coming home at the end of August, possibly end of September. I was contemplating bringing Miracle down here and making a permanant move but i can't. I could stay here alone but to what expense? Missing her first steps, her talking, her whole first 2 years of life...I can't. Plus, though recovery is coming along and I'm making improvements here at Pressing On, I'm not happy. I miss home. I miss my family, I miss my friends, I miss life. Moving here with nothing but recovery to focus on has gotten me stuck. I'm obsessed with recovery, and losing my sanity in the process. I need to move on with life and recover at the same time which isn't happening. When I come home I'm going to start college, hopefully work at Edglea stables, recover on the side and be with my beautiful little girl. If working out at home doesn't work, then maybe I'll prepare and make a permanant move elsewhere or maybe something will come to Dallas. Can I be happy in a wheelchair the rest of my life if that is what it comes to? I honestly don't know. I don't see myself in a chair forever. But, if this is God's plan for me, then He will show me the way. If his plan is for me to recover, then He will make it possible in every aspect of life. From the end of the summer on, Miracle and I are a package deal... I'm never leaving her side again.
Monday, July 7, 2008
Something I did not mention in my recording. I have my eye on a ministry in Ugaunda that reaches out to disabled people and children with AIDS. I'm going to do some more research but very soon I will decide on whether or not I will make a trip out there. Please pray for God to lead my in the right direction!!!
Thursday, June 25, 2008
So some awesome stuff happened today in the gym with Nito. It was so exciting that I am torn whether to go home at the end of the summer or not. Today we did some ab exercises that we hard core. We also got in the parralell bars and with him locking out my left leg I was able to lift my right leg off the ground! HECK YA! Also I was able to stand up by grabbing onto Nito's shoulders and his knees locking out mine. It was awesome! I can't wait to get some video and pictures of my latest improvements
Sunday, June 21, 2008
So a few things a little confused and mixed up but overall cool!! Check out the Dentonrc newpaper article
http://www.dentonrc.com/sharedcontent/dws/drc/sports/stories/DRC_Denton_soccer_0622.280cebec.html
Thursday, June 5, 2008
Man this week flew so fast I can't believe it's almost over!!! This week was good. I walked some in my leg braces at physical therapy. Tommorrow I go in for the orthotist to make a few adjustments. I thinks its going to take a while before I can really use them at home. Its hard since I dont have anyone here to practice with me... I am excited to bring them home to Dallas next week and practice with my mom. My physical therapist said she was going to get some lofstrand crutches. Pressing On was an uneventful week except for Monday I FELT the power plate all over the inside of my leg. It tickled!! Yay for feeling. Anyways, I love you all and can't wait to see everyone. I might attempt to come to church next weekend and WALK some with the leg braces..
Friday, May 30, 2008
I got my leg braces and got to use them for the first time today in physical therapy at Forte!!! Yippee. They are a lot harder to use then I expected so I have a lot of practicing to do. I also had a great workout at Pressing On today! Here are some photos.
Tueday, May 27, 2008
I got released today to start working out again!!!!! YES! Pressing On gets there new gait trainer in tommorrow too! I cant wait. AND I get my leg braces Friday. Still loving my roomate...she hasn't gone crazy on me yet.hehe. There has been some drama going on with others around me but I am trying to stay steadfast in the Lord and not make it MY drama. Here are some pics of my awesome roomie!! Check out her website at www.princessonwheels.com
Friday, May 23, 2008
So this week has been full of decision making. I found out I got accepted into International House of Prayer in Kansas City. I've been wanting to go to IHOP since Janruary. The injury kept me from going to the spring track so now that I have the option of the summer track I am so torn. I also was thinking about just coming home to Dallas to love on Miracle and let my body heal some more before continuing Pressing On. Then, in the midst of all this, I found out there is a spinal cord injury exercise based program in Kansas City as well...
What do I do? I love Pressing On and my roomie... but is God calling me to Kansas City? Also, they have a children's track of International House of Prayer that starts when they are 1 years old. So Miracle could come too. Miracle, IHOP, and Quest to Walk. I dont know what to do...IM SO TORN!
Saturday, May 10, 2008
I guess the words are you take one step foward and two steps back. Wednesday night I flipped out of my chair and landed wrong. After spending a night and day in the hospital I am now home but my back is needing to continue to heal and I am not able to work out at Pressing On for a while. So, I am spending the next 5 days resting and following the doctors order then I will come back to Dallas for a week to regroup. On the good note I get fitted for leg braces on Tuesday and this time it is for real!
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Sorry to everyone who has emailed me and I haven't replied. I have been crazy busy getting ready and working my tail off in the gym. I love Stephanie the girl I am living with. Our house is PERFECT and we are having a blast together. They are working my TAIL off in the gym. I feel like I was beat the last two days. Monday was a great start. Nito, the head trainer was able to get my body to start responding and I was really contecting my brain with the movements that we were doing. Still have the bum left leg but even it was making passive movements that weren't there before. I am hoping to get leg braces soon... though I've been saying that for a while now so we will see. Oh, and I'm coming home May 17-23 so hope to see a lot of people then...and hopefully with some awesome improvements. I will take some photos tommorrow and post them.
Monday, April 21, 2008
The Chik-Fil-A fundraiser went amazing!!!! So many people showed up and it was uplifting to see so many people in the community cared. Thank you to everyone who came by. GOOD NEWS! I go see the orthotist Wednesday to see if I am ready for leg braces! YAY! It was amazing to see everyone!
Monday, April 14, 2008
Hey all! I was asked to do an update today so here I am. Nothing too new happening. I am just getting ready for moving. I have 12 more days. Its a bitter sweet thing. I am excited to get on the road to recovery but very sad that this happened and that I have to go. More of reality has been hitting lately and I'm coming to grips with what happened and that I have a very long, possibly life long road ahead of me. God revealed something very special to me a few nights ago that I would like to share.
I have moments where I get down on myself... down on myself because I wonder if I would just have a little more faith if I would be walking. Have you ever heard the term, "well you just need to have a little more faith?" Well I hear it a lot.
So I feel guilty. My slowly my guilt gets to be less and less.
First of all, in the Bible says God make the earth in seven days. When I think of seven GOD days I don’t think of seven earth days. Who knows, it could of taken God 700 earth years to finish His creation. So God’s healing could be flowing all over me, its just IN GODS TIMING.
Ecc 3:11 says "He has made everything beautiful in its time." My time may have started or it MAY NOT BE MY TIME YET.
Ecc 3:1 says "There is a time for everything anda season for every activity under the sun."
The Holy Spirit dwells in me. So I know that He would not place a hope or dream in my mind and heart if He could not fullfil it. So it has nothing to do with not having enough faith. I have faith! I mean come on JESUS ROSE FROM THE DEAD! He rose others from the dead. He cured the blind, he cast demons out of people, he cured people who had lifetime of disease.
In John 5 Jesus cures a paralyzed man that had been that way for 38 YEARS!
Healing is coming. Whether on this earth or the next... God’s timing is everything
Saturday April 5, 2008
I visited a new Physical Medicine and Rehabilitation Dr. this week. I loved her. Her spirit was just so uplifting and I did not here one negative word come out of her mouth. Anyways, even when I move down to San Antonio I will drive her to Dallas for appointments with her.
We have decided to raffle off Sylvester as a fundraiser. Look to Pony Raffle page for more information
I'll have more news next week! Until then, God Bless and don't lose sight of Him
Monday, March 31, 2008
Pressing On
Pressing On was amazing last week. That is the place I know I will recover at. The people are so postive and they believe in me... they believe in recovery. Also, the program got its name from the christian band Relient K's song Pressing On. They people are Christians..they know the work God does. So this month is fundraising and hopefully by May I'm in San Antonio
Thursday, March 20, 2008
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Baylor Wk 4 and Discharge
Here I am sitting at HOME!!! This week was good! Monday I got ready to leave Wednesday like ordering supplies with my PT and figuring out where I was going to do outpatient PT. I don’t think anything special happened that day... Tuesday was cool because it was my last day I got to choose what to do. In the pool I chose to try stairs. I walked up them!!! With help of course but it was cool. I love how the pool takes away gravity. Then in PT we did some mat work like crawling... finally something other than same old, same old. Wednesday I BAILED OUT! I hung out at church the rest of the day and loved on my daughter when I got home. Today I met my new PT who I loved. I talked about getting fitted with leg braces so I could get up and out of this wheelchair a little. She said we would see after I strengthend my left hip a more. She always was excited that I was going to Pressing On next week and wanted to hear all about it when I got back. Then I had a Dr. appointment bc I already got a UTI. Tommorrow we get ready to leave for San Antonio, Saturday party at the Accommazzos, Sunday easter and Monday SAN ANTONIO BABY!
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Saturday, February 16, 2008
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